There are a few things I've been meaning to post here, but then life gets in the way and a week has past and I haven't posted, and now I have something else that I want to post about in addition to the first thing. *sigh*
I am in a perpetual group text with two of my best friends (and two fellow teachers). Lesley and I taught at SHS my first year teaching and were instantly inseparable. We had (mostly) weekly movie nights for the next 5 years. Then, two years ago, enter Jen. She was hired at SHS and Lesley was assigned as her mentor teacher. Jen came to one movie night and, to use a cliché simile, she fit in like a missing puzzle piece. Then, in June, the saddest thing in the world happened. Jen moved back to her home state of Minnesota, and Lesley and her family moved to Huntington Beach where her husband had gotten a job with OC Fire.
Almost immediately after Lesley's move to HB, she got a job with Girls Inc. which is a great organization. We have it here in our area and they work with the 8th grade girls at my school. She worked a regular 9-5, 5 days a week. She spent her summer taking middle school girls on field trips to aquariums and Knott's Berry Farm. She attended fancy luncheons where she convinced rich ladies to donate money to the organization. There was no more grading papers, no more staying after school for hours to help students who were struggling, no more attending funerals for family members of students who were killed in gang activity, no more teenage pregnancy, crying for the kids who were homeless at 17 because their dads kicked them out to make room for their new girlfriends, no more trying to control classes of 40+ students whose reading levels ranged from 4th grade to college level. The area where we live(d) is a very interesting one. Within a 20 mile radius, you have millionaires, migrant farm workers, gang members, and everyone in between. We teach (taught) in the less affluent area, but still even there, you have kids who live in huge houses and kids who live 3 families to a two bedroom apartment. Lesley's new job was a cake walk by comparison.
And she was unhappy. "I need pain-in-the-ass kids who drive me crazy." She said in our group text. "Teaching is 100 times harder than this job, but it is where I belong. I'm a teacher."
Most people would think she was crazy, but I get it. Jen gets it. Plenty of my other teacher-friends get it. We are teachers. The same way we are alive. Teaching isn't a job, and it's certainly not a back-up plan (I'm looking at you: people who have ever said, "well if that doesn't work out, I can always teach" as if it's that easy).
Which is why I get so angry when non-teachers talk shit about public education and how there aren't enough high-quality teachers. I teach in a very low-paying district. I am there early. I stay late. There is nothing I wouldn't do for my students. I spend hundreds of my own dollars every year on my classroom. I feed them. I counsel them. I nurture them. I protect them to fullest extend of my ability as long as their bodies are on our campus.
But I also get it. Because I've had colleagues I've despised because they had no business teaching. However, those people are few and far between. You want high-quality teachers? Give schools more money. Give them the resources they need. When it comes to the education of our children, why should any expense be spared? Why should I have to spend $400 on a class set of The Hunger Games so my kids can read a book they are interested in? I shouldn't. But I did. Because it means that much to me. Is it my fault that my school district can't afford to provide the resources I need to teach? No. But it's not the kids' fault either.
You want high-quality teachers? Pay them wages they can live on. I am always, always broke by the end of the month and I have two roommates. There is no way I could afford to live on my own. It really is no surprise that there is such high turnover in education. Perhaps if teachers were paid a lot more (the way they are in many other countries), education would be a more competitive field, and teachers wouldn't leave the field so quickly. Show teachers that their work is valued.
You want high-quality teachers? Make things equitable from school-to-school. Another middle school in my district just 10 miles down the road has smart boards, ipads, and apple tv. Some of our teachers are still using overhead projectors. Not LCD projectors. Overhead projectors. These things:
Some of our classrooms still have chalkboards. Chalkboards. There is a classroom on my campus where the floor tiles are coming up so badly that students (and teacher) routinely trip over them. But 10 miles away, they're having a ball with their smart boards and their apple tv's.
Why don't I go get a job there? Why don't I go get a job in a better paying district? The kids. I love our kids. I love the diversity. I, like Lesley, love the pain-in-the-ass at-risk kids who drive us crazy, but steal our hearts. Would our job be easier in a more affluent school where all kids are performing at grade level and behavior problems are few? Yeah, probably. But working with our demographic is so much more rewarding.
You see, it's not about the money, and it is totally about the money. I don't teach for the money (obviously. And I know you've heard that before). But could money make me a better teacher? I lie awake at night sometimes and dream of the things I could do in my classroom if I had the resources I want/need/deserve to do my job well. I know I'm the best teacher I can be right now. Would that be magnified if I had better resources? I get excited just thinking about it. Maybe one day. But for now, I'll continue to do what I can with what I have.
Because the problem with education isn't the teachers. It's the conditions under which they are expected to teach and students are expected to learn.
Sunday, September 15, 2013
Thursday, August 22, 2013
New/old school year
The new school year started. I am teaching all new things, but 75% of my students are the same, so I don't really have the feeling of having had a summer off. I feel like, didn't I just see you yesterday? I am teaching Leadership again (which is awesome), 8th grade Honors English, 8th grade AVID, 7th grade AVID (AVID is a class for kids who have potential, but are kind of middle of the road achievers and will be the first in their families to go to college. They (ideally) start taking it in middle school and continue taking it every year through high school. They learn organization and study skills, go on college tours, get help applying for scholarships, applying for college, and filling out the FAFSA, etc), and regular 8th grade English. It's been overwhelming having 5 different classes. I like to think my Honors and regular 8th grade classes will do the same things, but they won't. The honors class is only 1 period, while the 8th grade class is 2. I love my kids though. They're great. The 7th grade AVID class is driving me mad though. There are some kids who really should not be in that class.
Enough boring stuff. Here are a few "Sh!t my students say" from the last two weeks.
---"Ms. T, I really like my AVID shirt, but when I looked at myself in the mirror, it said DIVA, and that was weird." (from a boy).
---Listening to hip-hop at the end of class, while the 8th grade girls were at a Girls Inc presentation...
Student 1 (dancing): This is how I be like at the club.
Me: What club? You're 12.
Student 2: The Mickey Mouse Club!
---Me: Okay, put away your flashcards. I'm going to hand out the quiz.
Male Student: One minute! I need to get 10 hugs!
Enough boring stuff. Here are a few "Sh!t my students say" from the last two weeks.
---"Ms. T, I really like my AVID shirt, but when I looked at myself in the mirror, it said DIVA, and that was weird." (from a boy).
---Listening to hip-hop at the end of class, while the 8th grade girls were at a Girls Inc presentation...
Student 1 (dancing): This is how I be like at the club.
Me: What club? You're 12.
Student 2: The Mickey Mouse Club!
---Me: Okay, put away your flashcards. I'm going to hand out the quiz.
Male Student: One minute! I need to get 10 hugs!
Monday, March 25, 2013
On Roller Derby...
The other day, I started thinking about derby and my place in it, what it means, how it has changed my life, and what a crazy, insane subculture it is.
Above all else, it is a sport. Those who don't understand it often ask questions like, "So, you beat people up on skates?" "It's fake like wrestling, right?" and, a favorite among the derby community, "Where's the ball?"
There are rules. Say whaaat? There is actually a 60-page rule book. (Interested in some light reading? Roller Derby Rules.)
As soon as you decide to make the leap into derby, it is impossible not to completely immerse yourself in derby culture. What is derby culture? It is difficult to define. It could be different for each skater, but I will attempt to do my best to describe what it is for me, and most of the members of my league, The Monterey Bay Derby Dames.
Derby isn't just going to practice, scrimmage, and playing in bouts. It is committee meetings and league meetings. It is derby weekends--traveling to see other leagues play. It is traveling to watch your travel team play other leagues, or play in tournaments. Everything else is put on hold because next to playing derby, watching derby is the absolute next best thing you could be doing with your time. And traveling for derby affords the best bonding opportunities for league-mates and teammates. (Sometimes, you have multiple teams within a league and there are some skaters you rarely have the opportunity to spend time with). It means that even though you skate between 4 and 8 hours a week for practice, you still choose to spend your free time at open skate at the rink, or skating outside on the rec trail.
Derby is crowding around someone's computer screen to watch live derby on Derby News Network.
Derby is spending your extra money on wheels, Derby Skinz, gear, and daydreaming about being able to afford Antiks.
Derby is RollerCon. A week of derby awesomeness in the stifling heat of Las Vegas. Over 2,000 derby people skating, swimming, partying every night, and receiving lots of confused looks from the hotel guests who are just there for vacation and know nothing about derby. Who are these weird people in ripped tights with numbers sharpied on their arms?
Most importantly, derby is having instant camaraderie with anyone else who plays derby. The best example of this happened just yesterday. The travel team for my league was in a tournament. Brain, woke up to find her car had been stolen. To add insult to injury, her skate bag had been in the car. She had no skates, no gear, and had a game to play at 10:30 that morning. The derby community pulled together unlike anything I'd heard of before. One of our sister leagues (one located very close to ours) had the first game of the day. They came off the track and leant gear to Brain so that she could still play in the tournament. Later, after hearing her tale of woe, 187, one of the skate pad companies, donated all new pads to Brain. Another vendor, Square Cat Skates, hooked her up with a brand new helmet. Everyone pulled together to help make the best of a shitty situation.
Derby is family.
Above all else, it is a sport. Those who don't understand it often ask questions like, "So, you beat people up on skates?" "It's fake like wrestling, right?" and, a favorite among the derby community, "Where's the ball?"
There are rules. Say whaaat? There is actually a 60-page rule book. (Interested in some light reading? Roller Derby Rules.)
As soon as you decide to make the leap into derby, it is impossible not to completely immerse yourself in derby culture. What is derby culture? It is difficult to define. It could be different for each skater, but I will attempt to do my best to describe what it is for me, and most of the members of my league, The Monterey Bay Derby Dames.
Derby isn't just going to practice, scrimmage, and playing in bouts. It is committee meetings and league meetings. It is derby weekends--traveling to see other leagues play. It is traveling to watch your travel team play other leagues, or play in tournaments. Everything else is put on hold because next to playing derby, watching derby is the absolute next best thing you could be doing with your time. And traveling for derby affords the best bonding opportunities for league-mates and teammates. (Sometimes, you have multiple teams within a league and there are some skaters you rarely have the opportunity to spend time with). It means that even though you skate between 4 and 8 hours a week for practice, you still choose to spend your free time at open skate at the rink, or skating outside on the rec trail.
Derby is crowding around someone's computer screen to watch live derby on Derby News Network.
Derby is spending your extra money on wheels, Derby Skinz, gear, and daydreaming about being able to afford Antiks.
Derby is RollerCon. A week of derby awesomeness in the stifling heat of Las Vegas. Over 2,000 derby people skating, swimming, partying every night, and receiving lots of confused looks from the hotel guests who are just there for vacation and know nothing about derby. Who are these weird people in ripped tights with numbers sharpied on their arms?
Most importantly, derby is having instant camaraderie with anyone else who plays derby. The best example of this happened just yesterday. The travel team for my league was in a tournament. Brain, woke up to find her car had been stolen. To add insult to injury, her skate bag had been in the car. She had no skates, no gear, and had a game to play at 10:30 that morning. The derby community pulled together unlike anything I'd heard of before. One of our sister leagues (one located very close to ours) had the first game of the day. They came off the track and leant gear to Brain so that she could still play in the tournament. Later, after hearing her tale of woe, 187, one of the skate pad companies, donated all new pads to Brain. Another vendor, Square Cat Skates, hooked her up with a brand new helmet. Everyone pulled together to help make the best of a shitty situation.
Derby is family.
Thursday, January 3, 2013
2013 And Beyond...
2013. Here you are. Seriously. 2013? I think it was Roo over at Nice Girl Notes who commented that 2013 sounded like a year somewhere in the far away future. I still feel like the '90s were just yesterday. Is this what getting old feels like? Do my parents still feel like the 70's were "just yesterday"? Wild, man.
With the coming of 2013, I, like so many across this great land have vowed to be healthier. Over the last two years, I've gained about 40 pounds and I am not proud of it. In fact, I'm downright disgusted in myself. I can blame the broken ankle of 2011 and the broken wrist of 2012, but really it was the poor choices I made when it came to what I put into my body. It wasn't for lack of exercise. Roller Derby is a very physically demanding sport--especially when you're on the travel team in my league. I just used that as an excuse to eat crap.
This is the year of changes. I've spent the last two and a half years super involved in derby. I was team captain of my home team, secretary on the board, skated on the travel team, was the head fresh meat coach, and was also on 4 committees. This year, I have had to take a step back. My financial situation is at the worst it's ever been and the opportunity came up for me to sell out one of my planning periods at school in order to take on the leadership class. It means they have to pay me 1/6 of my salary on top of what I already make, which means I can start making dents in my debt. However, it comes at a cost. The biggest one will probably be my sanity. The other big cost is that in order to not lose my mind with the added stress of teaching the leadership class, I quit the travel team. I don't even know how to comprehend not being on the travel team. I'm literally cutting my weekly skating time in half. Travel team skaters have 8 hours of required practice a week. Home team skaters have 4. I'm also not team captain this year, nor am I having anything to do with Fresh Meat this season. I've scaled it back a lot, but I've taken on a lot more responsibilities at work. Again, is this what getting old feels like? I don't like it. I'd rather be super involved in derby than in work, but work pays the bills, so here I am.
I'm relishing in the last couple days of Winter Break. I don't want to go back to work, but I am also excited because we start The Hunger Games this Quarter and I can't wait! We had so much fun with it last year.
Other things I'm looking forward to in 2013:
City of Bones (the movie)
Requiem (the final book of the Delirium triology)
The Clockwork Princess (the final book of the Infernal Devices)
Disneyland and the possibility of my annual pass
RollerCon 2013
Being Healthy
Trying CrossFit this summer
Going back to Zumba
Junior Derby (we're adding a Junior derby league to our league! Little girls playing derby is so cute!)
I hope you all have great things to look forward to in 2013!
With the coming of 2013, I, like so many across this great land have vowed to be healthier. Over the last two years, I've gained about 40 pounds and I am not proud of it. In fact, I'm downright disgusted in myself. I can blame the broken ankle of 2011 and the broken wrist of 2012, but really it was the poor choices I made when it came to what I put into my body. It wasn't for lack of exercise. Roller Derby is a very physically demanding sport--especially when you're on the travel team in my league. I just used that as an excuse to eat crap.
This is the year of changes. I've spent the last two and a half years super involved in derby. I was team captain of my home team, secretary on the board, skated on the travel team, was the head fresh meat coach, and was also on 4 committees. This year, I have had to take a step back. My financial situation is at the worst it's ever been and the opportunity came up for me to sell out one of my planning periods at school in order to take on the leadership class. It means they have to pay me 1/6 of my salary on top of what I already make, which means I can start making dents in my debt. However, it comes at a cost. The biggest one will probably be my sanity. The other big cost is that in order to not lose my mind with the added stress of teaching the leadership class, I quit the travel team. I don't even know how to comprehend not being on the travel team. I'm literally cutting my weekly skating time in half. Travel team skaters have 8 hours of required practice a week. Home team skaters have 4. I'm also not team captain this year, nor am I having anything to do with Fresh Meat this season. I've scaled it back a lot, but I've taken on a lot more responsibilities at work. Again, is this what getting old feels like? I don't like it. I'd rather be super involved in derby than in work, but work pays the bills, so here I am.
I'm relishing in the last couple days of Winter Break. I don't want to go back to work, but I am also excited because we start The Hunger Games this Quarter and I can't wait! We had so much fun with it last year.
Other things I'm looking forward to in 2013:
City of Bones (the movie)
Requiem (the final book of the Delirium triology)
The Clockwork Princess (the final book of the Infernal Devices)
Disneyland and the possibility of my annual pass
RollerCon 2013
Being Healthy
Trying CrossFit this summer
Going back to Zumba
Junior Derby (we're adding a Junior derby league to our league! Little girls playing derby is so cute!)
I hope you all have great things to look forward to in 2013!
Thursday, October 11, 2012
I'm at a payphone...
A colleague was having a conversation with her 7th graders about the song "Payphone" by Maroon 5. (My first question is why the hell does Adam Levine need to use a payphone in the first place? He has tons of money and surely has a cell phone. Does not compute). Anyway, being that today's 7th graders were born in the year 2000 and beyond (chew on that for a minute, will you? Yeah, they have no claim to the 90's. They were born after the new millennium. Crazy), they did not live in a world where cell phones were not ubiquitous.
So, my colleague asks her students, "Do you guys even know what a payphone is?" And one answers, "Yeah, those are those phones that you put minutes on ahead of time." My colleague was first like: /headdesk. And then answered, "No. That is a pre-paid cell phone. A payphone is a phone that you have to put change in before you can make a phone call." Another student speaks up, "Oh! The phone in a box!?" Yes. The phone in the box.
So then I started thinking about pay phones. I remembered how much of a pain in the ass they were to use...especially if you didn't have change. But there's something nostalgic about them. They played a big part of my pre-teen and early teen years. It kind of makes me sad that my students will never know what its like to have to fish change out of the fountain at the mall just to call for a ride home. Or, when you were really desperate because you'd spent your last penny on something stupid you really didn't need from Spencers or Hot Topic, calling home collect and when asked to state your name, you quickly rambled, "I'matthemallcomepickmeup" so that your parents/older sibling could deny the charges. Did anyone else do this?
So, my colleague asks her students, "Do you guys even know what a payphone is?" And one answers, "Yeah, those are those phones that you put minutes on ahead of time." My colleague was first like: /headdesk. And then answered, "No. That is a pre-paid cell phone. A payphone is a phone that you have to put change in before you can make a phone call." Another student speaks up, "Oh! The phone in a box!?" Yes. The phone in the box.
So then I started thinking about pay phones. I remembered how much of a pain in the ass they were to use...especially if you didn't have change. But there's something nostalgic about them. They played a big part of my pre-teen and early teen years. It kind of makes me sad that my students will never know what its like to have to fish change out of the fountain at the mall just to call for a ride home. Or, when you were really desperate because you'd spent your last penny on something stupid you really didn't need from Spencers or Hot Topic, calling home collect and when asked to state your name, you quickly rambled, "I'matthemallcomepickmeup" so that your parents/older sibling could deny the charges. Did anyone else do this?
Thursday, August 2, 2012
RollerCon 2012
Returning to reality after spending 5 days at a roller derby convention in Las Vegas is rough. I literally only left the vicinity of the hotel once, on Friday night, to go to a fancy dinner at The Sugar Factory with my league mates and my derby wife. The rest of the time, I only went outside to go to the pool or across the parking lot to The Peppermill. Everything happened inside the Riviera. You woke up in the morning, went downstairs, and could literally choose between 4 different training classes, open scrimmage or open skate, 4 different seminars, shopping in Vendor Village, or watching or participating in Challenge Bouts all day long. Or of course, there was the pool which was open 24 hours a day, just for us!
RollerCon was fucking amazing. I took classes and seminars from my favorite skaters, learned to Jam Skate, watched my heroes skate (Team USA!), got my ass kicked up and down the track by Razorslut of LADD, swam, drank, partied. Oh boy did I party. I don't really party. Sometimes months will go by and I haven't had any alcohol, but RollerCon is an exception. We rolled into Vegas at around 5:00 Wednesday morning, checked in, celebrated with some beers, and went to bed for about 4 hours before getting up and hitting registration. Then, we spent the rest of the day by the pool. That night, we went to karaoke at the Top of the Riv. Roller derby people take karaoke very seriously. As evidenced in the video below:
There are parties every night. Wednesday was karaoke. Thursday was the Reidell luau (and then karaoke afterward). Friday was Derby Wedding and Pants Off, Dance Off (and leg wrestling and derby divorce). Saturday was the Black and Blue Ball. One of my friends was also in Vegas for a hacker conference called DEFCON and he meandered over to the Black and Blue Ball and said they closed the pool down at 5 am. I think I left somewhere around 3. RollerCon was amazing. I can't even explain it. I'll let the pictures tell the story. :)
RollerCon was fucking amazing. I took classes and seminars from my favorite skaters, learned to Jam Skate, watched my heroes skate (Team USA!), got my ass kicked up and down the track by Razorslut of LADD, swam, drank, partied. Oh boy did I party. I don't really party. Sometimes months will go by and I haven't had any alcohol, but RollerCon is an exception. We rolled into Vegas at around 5:00 Wednesday morning, checked in, celebrated with some beers, and went to bed for about 4 hours before getting up and hitting registration. Then, we spent the rest of the day by the pool. That night, we went to karaoke at the Top of the Riv. Roller derby people take karaoke very seriously. As evidenced in the video below:
The road to Vegas at 2:45 am
5:20 am beers!
The registration line
Mimosas at the Peppermill!
Fireside lounge at the Peppermill. What a time warp, right? And that's INSIDE!
MBDD watching the Team Sexy vs. Chupacabras Peligrosas bout!
Team Sexy vs. Chupacabras Peligrosas
The pool on Wednesday night.
The karaoke crowd (and Eve L Twin)
Vix and Eve slow dancing
MBDD in line to get tickets to Quadzilla's jam skating class
Luau!!!
Vix and I about had a heart attach when the aliens from Sesame Street showed up at the luau.
Oh yeah, and Surge, Jem, Beans (not pictured), and I met Coolio by the pool and gave him a piggy back ride. This is not a joke. It really is him. He's kind of a d-bag.
Friday night: all dressed up for fancy dinner at The Sugar Factory (at the Paris)
This was our 36 oz goblet of yummy goodness. It tasted like gummy worms and had gummy worms in it.
Sharing our drink. We couldn't even finish it all.
Quadzilla and Demanda Riot ready to leg wrestle at Pants Off, Dance Off
Fresh Step and I drinking our Coronaritas at the Peppermill on Saturday night.
Black and blue ball! I was actually wearing a dress. That lasted about 15 minutes until it was just too hot and we decided to get in the pool.
Sunday, mid day. Team USA played Philly (and won by a lot). This was the first time I'd gotten to see my hero, Suzy Hot Rod skate in person. She plays for Gotham in New York, so it was probably a once in a life time opportunity. And we were sitting right behind their bench. To say I was excited is an understatement.
Monday: the road home.
If you want to read about what I learned at RollerCon, check out my Jux. Does anyone else out there have one? I like it a lot. School starts on Wednesday, officially, but I had to go back to work for meetings and trainings and classroom work yesterday. I really, really don't want summer to be over, but I saw a ton of my students from last year today when I was at school (they're group leaders for the new 6th graders coming in) and it was so good to see them. Also, there's a slight chance I'll teach one section of 8th grade (if we hire this new guy who wants to teach ELD) and if that happens, I'll have some of my former students. SO excited, but trying not to get my hopes up. And now, I must blowdry my hair and get ready for bed. I'm not used to getting up early anymore. :(
Thursday, July 5, 2012
I'm still alive...
Um...what? It's been since February that I last posted? Yeesh! Okay, so I kind of had an excuse in the beginning. I broke my wrist in a game on St. Patrick's Day. So instead of drinking a ton of green beer at the after party, I sat in the Emergency Room for 2 hours. Joy.
That blur? That's me in the miliseconds before my wrist snapped.
The EMT's were really nice.
Cheesin'
They made me get on the gurney. It was really embarrassing. I was like, "Really. I can walk."
Sitting in the ER.
My orthopedist is our league doctor, and he gave me the okay to skate after about 4 weeks. So, I did what any derby girl-still-in-a-cast does--duct tape a wrist guard to that shit and skate!
I have recovered from that injury and have been back to skating for quite some time. My home team just won our most recent intraleague game last Saturday. 202-110, Babes of Wrath!!!
In non-derby news, the school year ended on a super effing awesome note. My classes read The Hunger Games and had the best time with it. I actually looked forward to going to work every day. It was amazing. Kids who had been failing all year ended the quarter with B's and A's because they were so into the book. I will write a more detailed post on that later because it deserves its own. It will probably be image heavy. Right now, I'm enjoying summer. I can't believe that it's about half over already though. I feel like I've done a lot, and yet not much at all. It's currently 11:00am and I'm still in bed. This is what summer is for.
I started reading the Fifty Shades of Grey series (I know, I know...) out of morbid curiosity. I had heard about how poorly written it was. It has actually exceeded my expectations. I expected it to be far worse than it was. James actually has a respectable vocabulary and her imagery isn't bad. Her tendency to repeat the same phrases over and over and over again is annoying and I don't really feel that I care too much about the main characters, but for obvious reasons, the books are holding my attention. Or, if you're not familiar, perhaps they aren't that obvious. To be blunt: the sex is hot. So, of course I'm going to keep reading. There is actually a plot. It's not very gripping, but it's there. Am I selling this series or what?
I should get up and shower. I'm going to lunch then seeing Magic Mike before travel team practice tonight. I hope you all had a great 4th, yesterday!
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